I Don't Want To Be Me

When I look in the mirror
I hate what I see
'Cause in the end
I don't want to be me

I hide my feelings behind a smile
So that no one understands
I'll stay here beneath for awhile
I'll bury myself with these hands

Underneath this weak shell
I'm crying
Someone touched my shell, and it fell
And he saw me dying

And it all ended like this
The boy found someone else he loved
Without knowing I gave him a kiss
And the next day I weren't beloved

I won't let anyone in
I've lost trust, you might have herd
This shell is now so thin
It'll brake 'cause of just a word

When I look in the mirror
I hate what I see
'Cause in the end
I don't want to be me

Too Close

All the things that made me cry
Has got some lessons to impart
If you don't want to die
Never let anyone too close into your heart

Pain

To make it thuru the rain
Without feeling any pain
Is impossible for a girl like me
'Cause pain makes us feel free

I hate pain, but I hate me more
I feel stupied, like a damn whore
And when I start to bleed I know pain arrive
I'm made of it and that's what keeps me alive

In the mist I stand
I want to leave this empety land
My hands are crying blood
I was always misunderstood

My dreams

I'm ready to let go of you
'Cause there layes a future for me
Though I still love you, it's true
But our life are going to different dierctions, you see

I opened up my eyes a night
I was lying awake next to you
I want my dream, and I'm gonna fight!
To get there, and you knew

You knew all the time that I had a chance
But you kept your damn mouth shut
And now there's nothing, no more romance
You're a fucking smut and a slut

I slammed the door behind me
And I cursed your name
'Cause I was angry, wouldn't you be?
Yeah you would have done the same!

Sleepless nights and cold dayes will past me by
My dreams are my goals and they lay ahead
And I promised myself, tears will never fall for you, I'll never cry!
'Cause enough I've bled

My blood froze in my vain
When I heard that yesterday
You got hit by a train
And my promise I betrayed