So scared

Sitting here cursing myself for being so scared
I missed all those things 'cause I never dared
When I sit in class with people I don't know
I don't speak, I'm scared but I try not to show
If someone would look at me
I would glare back with eyes saying: "leave me be"
When all I mean is be my friend and hold my hand
Say something, don't ignore, and please; try to understand


So that might be the truth
The undiscovered meaning
Just so you know
Why I'm always so

Tears

I did shut the door forever
On a november day, that was the longest day ever
But that was when I realized what I didn't dare
It was that you would never care

And losing it, I felt so empety in the rain
Tired I walked but still carrying the pain
And tears were running down, they never end
'Cause they were there, when I used to pretend

Now I've made a lifestore of tears
They will never end, I broke the gears
So this is just, a lovely pray
That I will never choose to stay