Reality

It's difficult to try and lift a mountain
And I guess my thoughts are just a bit lighter
Still that's nothing I want you to try
Actually I don't really want you
to read me anymore
And you lost the will to deal
Maybe it'll end for real?

Maybe it's safer with you by my side
But perhaps I don't want you too close
For how could I be your laughter
If you won't be my comfort
Maybe it's safer without you
When you cannot see what I feel
Maybe we were never real?

Det är läskigt i mitt bröst
Där hjärtat borde vara
Det har stormat där länge nu
För evigt viskar ingen
Och jag vill skrika nej
Jag tänker inte ligga här för evigt

A Place For Innocence

I guess I'm the same person
I've always been
And I guess you wouldn't notice
Every difference about me
Just because you don't
Look
You don't observe
When everything you
Take for granted
Is thrown down in the same ashes
Where I rest my bones
You still won't see your part
In everything painful
You still won't see
The blood you've spilled
You'll still be embraced by your own innocence
You still won't know how to use your eyes

Meaning

So when I find myself in the same
Down-dug hole
Where my face is met by regret
And confusion is all I speak
Wordless conversations with nobody
Pointless dialogues with somebody
Search for point and meaning
Of everything I do and don't
What I should and shouldn't
I revise my previous thoughts
But find nothing new
To put in the holes
To replace pointlessness with

Close Emptiness

As you held me and wondered what happened inside
Inside of this cold shell I wear
And I continued to mumble empty nothingness
It seems I've lost the will to share
I guess I wish you could read me
And I guess the truth's that you don't really care
So I built this fucking distance
When I really want you to see my dispair

When I lay beside the sleeping beauty, You
Sometimes my aching anguish keeps me from rest
My mind's the root of the suffering I endure
Also the reason for the pain in my breast
And it strikes me that you're so unaware
Is it my smiles that keeps the knowledge repressed?
Or that it just doesn't shine through my face
That you cannot believe everything I've expressed

I've been thinking about the embraces we share
We're so damn close, but I feel like I'm still far away
I wonder if you've even noticed my absence
But I guess this is okay