Absence

I laugh and I smile
Absent from reality
What am I doing?
Freedom fills me with joy
And I don't ever want to leave
These fake emotions behind

They call my name
And I can hear them at a distance
It just doesn't matter right now
Because I'm walking in the world
The world you put me in
I'm walking in myself and I don't feel

For the hurt is downbeat
And my body's so heavy
My mind is so heavy
To not think I'll put up with this
Every breath to be strained
But I don't have to think