Crumbling

This is how I'm crumbling
As we're wide awake, silently
caressing each other by mumbling
Loosing to each other
in dreams awake and asleep
where we are nakedly tumbling

This is how I'm breaking
You hold me hard but you can't
feel how our dimension is violently quaking
But you whisper to me
That we will be okay together
And you caress my body that's shaking

My reality is disrupting
You've again spoiled me the fun
that our breaths are always interrupting
But now it doesn't matter
Dreams and wishes I used to want
are washed away as my inside is erupting

Forget Me

Bittersweet yearning blooming in me
I feel the need of you near
Desire burning violently as we
Try to make this more clear

Oh fuck, I'm so terrified
How long have you been waiting?
I'm struck - I wish I had complied
Your affection is now abating

My longing turns to dwelling
It seems you are way stronger
I wring as you're exceling
I understand you can't wait any longer

I know that I'm not worth it
It's been paining you, my dear
I owe you the benefit
To move on, away from here

So tomorrow will brighten
Sometime I'll get past this
Stuck in sorrow, it'll whiten
Bleach, fade - the last kiss

Urge

I offer you my body

Harm it however you wish

Use it to the definite limit

Don't mind my anguish

Eventually, it'll vanish

I'll get used to anything

Just please, don't pain my mind

Stop torturing my heart

When you're so unkind

When I am left behind

I'm ready to compromise

Since you keep haunting my heart

I thought I was free, but

I was yours from the start

And I'm too weak to restart

So I offer you my body

You can damage this useless shell

I just want to keep my sanity

Since you won't break your spell

Since you're impossible to repel

I will satisfy your hunger

If you relieve my pain

I can no longer respect you

But this love, I can't contain

You keep driving me insane

In-Between

Push me over the edge
Don't leave me in the middle
Only half yours,
Half mine

I've been burning forever already
You know that I'm sore
So don't let me be just half friend,
Half more?

Darkness

I devour the darkness you feed me
You've made me fear the light
I've embraced your verdict on me
Your rules have become what's right

Broken ain't enough for you
You remove my skin like orange peel
I've got nothing to loose anymore
My salvation is to evade to feel

Let's not speculate too much
In why you're secretly poisoning me
I can't expose more hurt to you
You're the limbo from which I have to flee

I devour the darkness you feed me
You've made me reside in the shade
And without anyone noticing
It seems I've started to fade

To Not Forget

The memories are coming back to me
Of the years I spent ablaze
Too small to see the big picture
Too little to figure out the maze

No one ever saved me
From her obscure abuse
I've got no proof to show you
Looks and words, they don't bruise

Time will heal the wounds, they say
Yet four years later, they still bleed
For long I've stayed patient
Hoping to someday exceed

Life has been exhausting
To constantly be distressed
All I wish for now
Is to finally get some rest

Mannen

Soluppgång. När han
vaknar så bränner han sig
på vintern.

Han är aldrig sen;
för det existerar inga
ljud, bara ord.

En kall kaffekopp
som ingen spillde. Någon
höjer volymen.