Misunderstood

Misunderstood
Misled
All the things I should
I'm living dead

Mistaken
For a rose
A playground foresaken
I took the heavy doze

Misunderstood
Misled
Die, I wish I could
You coloured me red

screw this

It hurts me so much
And I'm too tired to see
I close my eyes
And I hope you'll set me free

Instead of have me hanging
When you don't really care
I begged you to end it instead of hurting me
But I guess you didn't dare

But now be honest
Let's come clean
You never loved me
I'm obscene

I know you never loved me
What is there in me to love?
I only find myself annoying
And someone you'll get sick of

I'm not the one I seem to be
I'm whiny and depressive
I'm just a mistake
I'd turn you aggressive

I don't know what my purpose is
Could it be to spread sorrow and doubt?
No one will ever love me for the one I am
I just want to shout

a self-destructive path

I became self-destructive
Losing myself in the sin
And the only way I'm productive
Is when I split up my skin

And the reasons are killing me
I panic inside
The first time I did it to feel free
But now I'm stuck and I've died

I am looking in the mirror
And I see all the things I hate
And my mind is becoming clearer
When did I gain so much weight?

And doing these things, destroying my body
Crying myself to sleep
All this blood I disembody
When I cut down too deep

She's falling

And so she's sitting in her bed
With her chin on her knees
Closing her eyes, going through her head
Trying to deny this damn disease

Her whole body full of straight little lines
Which she's doing everything to hide
And the reasons are loads of different kinds
It's just her thoughts shape on the outside

Happy is the first impression
She's become a pro to lie
She can't get rid of this obsession
Can't remember how it started, she can't remember why

She can't be her own protection
She can't beat herself alone
It's like a brain-infection
She can't survive it on her own

Her body is shivering and her mind's full of dread
She can't stop feeling so damn small
All the times her body coloured red
All those thoughts lead to her fall.

Lust

She is drinking your blood right from your skin
Look at those eyes, dangerous but oh so fine
She's dragging you into her sin
And you get to taste the divine

As your kissing her bloody lips
You feel your soul turning darker, your eyes turning black
And you're experiencing mental trips
You are losing yourself, there's no turning back

And she was there to seduce you
To help you drown in your own mind
And now you're moving closer that you never were true
She stole your life and you were blind

This is why they call her unreliable
She'll dig your grave
But she's undeniable
Still she's all that you crave

Dying

I opened your eyes
I never told you no lies
I gave you my heart
But you just torned it apart

I bled my part
I spoke my words
I did impart
I flew with the birds

And I crushed in my head
Exploaded and I bled
I turned against myself to flee
But I found it killing me

don't break

You helped me to stay
You gave me a reason
Promised you'd never betray
You made me live another season

And you made me alright
You made me whole
You gave me something bright
And saved my damaged soul

And then one day you weren't the same
You weren't okay
I couldn't see that burning flame
And I tried, but couldn't save your day

You gave me your love
You borrowed me your wings
But when you needed me to take you above
I didn't pull the right strings

I don't know how to help you
If you don't let me in
And it kills me to see you go through
When you're breaking within

.~.~.~.~.

I'm holding my breath
I'm closing my eyes
This is love's death
No one can hear my cries

I'm lying in my bed
The world is silent
Can't get this out of my head
These thoughts turning violent

Walking alone
With my arms burning red
Tears has flown
I have bled

Nothing I treasure is fun anymore
I don't eat, don't sleep
It will never be as before
I'm drowning in myself, the shallow's deep

Condemnd

I know I'm the disappointment of this year
And I'm not good enough
I'm not as innocent as my tear
And I'm not at all tough

With my whole body red
For experimentation and curiosity
And no matter how much I bled
I couldn't show my generosity

For you where the one I would care about
I were supposed to hold you when you were blue
But both of us had to make it without
The warmth from someone we knew

How do I even know you'd care for my death
I'm heading wrong
And you're the one who's stealing my breath
How the hell am I supposed to get along

'Cause without my sweetest friend
The sharpest little blade
The one that could be my end
But it's also the one gettng me through alive this damn parade

I'm the disappointment of all the years
For you, for them
I can't stand for you to see my tears
I'm the one you condemn