Retained Words

There's a whisper deep within me
That I enshrouded long ago
Back when the sky became a graveyard
For someone I used to know

I hid the words with aching care
Slowly, I swept them away
In a way they make history repeat itself
It's like I loose you every day

There's a whisper deep within me
That I'm trying to retain
Saving a compaction of everything
I'll say when we meet again

Waking dream

My mind flows in separate directions
Recoloring everything I know

I try to tame the beasts in my chest
I wish to breathe, I want to grow

Yet I find myself in the same old terror
Each tarnished step burns and aches

My mind splits and shatters before me
Each thought turns into quakes

I must've brought my nightmares with me
When waking up in this brittle reality

I must've stored the acid in my rib-cage
Filled it up with pure brutality

But these trembling limbs are my normality
And I think sanity might be a triviality