Sunburned

The sun decends to haunt me

Not leaving a single shadow

No escape from the burns

Of thruth, that it deals me

My eyelids glows red

When I try to evade it

But my inside already ignited

And reality flickers in my mind

Anxious Essence

You could summarize my life
With words like terror and fear
I was always so anxious
And I seem to be a light-year
away from being free

Every day I face the torture
Going on under my skin
Like cloaked demons invading
Shaking all that's within
me, what you cannot see

It seems to be a part of my essence
Like I'm bent to worry
I've always been patient
But in the end, I want to bury
the life-style of dread

Hope seems to be slipping
Will I always carry this pain?
That I've tried so hard to loose
Will every future day contain
this inner torment?

Labyrinth of Desire

All of their wishes and desires
Vibrates throughout my limbs
Turns into screams in my breast
Deafening my own passion
It's a cursed compassion
That's having me distressed

'No' is the hardest phrase
That I could ever utter
My heart screams the word
That I'm not allowed to release
Instead my pulse would increase
And my desire stays unheard

For I never learnt the meaning
Of being my own individual
The angst is always greater
When I try to put myself first
There's still a sickening thirst
I just don't want to be the traitor

Annihilation angst

My ribcage is about to explode from the pressure
That never gets relieved
As I keep on tumbling towards distant goals
That yet are not achieved
I realize that all this time I was the one
Who had me deceived

Long ago, I decided to conquer my future
With any means required
I thought it would do with being aware
Of what I really desired
Yet the days move on too quickly
And that motivation expired

So my heart moans out of the inner torture
And my limbs won't obey
How did I lead myself here - in this vacuum
Why would I stray?
Everything important to me
I seem to push away

My ribcage has a bomb ticking within it
I try to lay low
Terrified that another wrong step
Would make it blow
Fireworks as I go under - look
It's making me glow