Just someone

I'm just among them all
I'm someone in the crowd
It doesn't matter if I fall
And to stand out is not allowed

I'm a minor part of life
I'm easy to replace
Let me play with my knife
And my dark memories erase

When I'll be gone
You'll find someone to take my place
I'm not as beautiful as a swan
Can't you see my disgrace

The world would never shed a tear
If you can't stand to feel
It's not important to repair
A life ain't no big deal

Don't give a damn
Don't even pretend to
I am the one I am
I'll try to get through

Shadow

Hold me tighter
Please don't let me go
With you my day seem brighter
I forget all the dark things I know

I'm about to fall away
Fade into someone in the crowd
Show me that I'm special today
Tell me that I make you proud

I need to know that I'm real
That I'm supposed to breathe this air
'Cause what I need to feel
Is that someone would care

Without me here on earth
Would anyone notice if I'd disappear
Am I anything worth
Do you want me here

To Shelter Away

And so it begun again
The goddamn isolation
I tried to strain
Drowning in my own frustration

I can't stop this act
Even though I try
I can't push away the fact
And I can't deny

I don't want to lose you
I don't want to shelter away
And it kills me that I can nothing do
Please make me stay

So weak I can't fight back
I'm losing to someone inide of me
I'm on the wrong track
I'm not the one I used to be

Sorrow Inside

All those tears inside me
That won't show
Some things that nobody can see
That's why they impossible could know

If I'm smiling that doesn't mean I'm okay
But that's what you assumed
The sharp blade that blow my mind away
My wrists are consumed

I feel like crying, but my eyes stay dry
I just need something flow
There's so much sorrow inside of me that I can't deny
And therefore my blood running slow

My blood is my tears
My scars are memories from my past
There is so much more than it appears
And the memories will last

Not an angel

I'm not an angel, no matter what you say,
'cause angels ain't that pathetic.
I'm selfish and wants to leave this place someday,
I'm only synthetic.

Maybe I look like someone from above,
but then you've got the sun in your eyes.
Would I still have your love,
if you knew I'm just someone in disguise.

The real me is not good at all,
she's just someone hiding.
She's a coward and feel so small,
whom is not abiding.

Will you take me by the hand in front of everyone,
and show them who I am?
Will you help me to not run,
say you love me in front of them?

Breaking inside

I've made some mistakes,
in this life of mine.
And the price that aches,
is that I don't feel fine.

It's easy to say,
and so easy to fake.
That I'm okay,
while I'm so close to break.

So close to fall apart,
and just bleed in the grass.
'Cause the dying heart,
will fight to the last.

The last breath,
that will take away all my sufferings.
That will be my death,
when someone will rip out my wings.

dammit

I thought it would be easy,
not hard at all.
To have someone close to you,
that could catch you when you fall.
I thought it would be light for every single moment,
and that we would both know.
But there is so much unspoken standing in the way,
and I'm much more lonely then I've ever been also.
I pushed some friends away,
and chose to trust in him instead.
But now I'm all alone,
even though I'm surrounded by alot of people I'm mislead.

And when you used to be you,
and no one else.
I never felt like this,
but now you're someone new.

You would see through,
my fake smile and just listen.
But now you're not the one you used to be,
and whoever you are now, you're defenetly not you.

Just some stupied words

I feel foolish,
And every second without you is like a hundred years.
When I'm with you,
The time goes by too fast.
When you hold my hand,
Or when you kiss me.
When you hold me,
Or when you say you love me,
I wish that feeling could stay forever.
Because you make me feel good.

Something I've gotta say, but please don't listen at me

You used to be the one,
I'd say everything to.
But this time I chose to run,
instead of telling you.

I'm sorry that I did such a damn thing,
but it's too late to turn back now.
These memories sting,
when I remember how.

How you used to understand,
but now I don't know you anymore.
You used to take my hand,
but I chose to shut my door.

You've changed into something alike me.
but I'd rather see my best friend.
I don't want you to be,
a part of that stupied trend.

Don't follow me

It's so damn hard,
and you're not the one you used to be.
though I've also changed,
I don't want you to turn into me.

I pushed you away,
so you wouldn't follow my mistakes.
I tried to make it alone,
but just got heartaches.

You have no idea,
'cause I didn't show you.
The consequences of the way I feel,
has changed shape too.

From innocent tears running from my eyes,
to little marks that'll never go away.
They would break my mothers heart,
if she'd see them someday.

And you would all be disappointed,
to know it all.
It's so damn easy to talk,
when you haven't got own memories to recall.

You wouldn't know what I'm going through,
you wouldn't understand.
'Cause the only way to do it to feel it yourself,
and I don't want this to expand.