Erasable

It pains my eyes to see how far this went
The deeper blue, higher sky
So much more unreachable in the present
Than I ever thought I'd come by

As my feet feels like as if made of stone
I rarely get out of my shell
And the feelings are to me well-known
When some days are just another new-born hell

Sometimes curiosity makes me wonder
How I managed to sink this deep
And I dragged them with me far under
As if they'd stay with the black sheep

The girl who cannot rest
Her nightmares coming alive
That seems insane to the unpossessed
But the empathic could connive

Behind a steel-worn face
Hidden emotions with perfection
Carried out with full grace
Shattered in her own protection
It's not erasable