a self-destructive path

I became self-destructive
Losing myself in the sin
And the only way I'm productive
Is when I split up my skin

And the reasons are killing me
I panic inside
The first time I did it to feel free
But now I'm stuck and I've died

I am looking in the mirror
And I see all the things I hate
And my mind is becoming clearer
When did I gain so much weight?

And doing these things, destroying my body
Crying myself to sleep
All this blood I disembody
When I cut down too deep