The Shame

I can taste the bitterness
When I'm trying to sleep
And the stings in my chest
For the memories I had to keep
That poisoned my head
And drove me insane
But I was too afraid
To ever complain
For the distrust that went on
The inner battles I faced
And still questioning
Why I was the only one not embraced
I felt so damn wrong
Life if I was covered in dirt
I think it scarred me
Since I still fucking hurt
And I hide my face
'Cause I'm full of shame
Since I hate what I am
What I became
To run from the past
And hide in a disguise
And I keep isolating myself
This is the prize
To not break into pieces
I stay in a zone more or less abstract
Just to not fall apart
But to keep myself intact